Hello Poetteers,
As you may have noticed that I didn't continue with the 12 poetry collaborations of dec. I couldn't find enough people that wanted to participate. Next, last month was my 9th blog anniversary. But that's not what I'm here to talk about.
My lifelong poetry affirmation is "my writing gives me clarity" but last year I had a specific poetry affirmation of "I will confidently take baby steps to share my vulnerability."
I had confessed that I was scared to share vulnerable pieces and scared of my emotions to write. When I first started writing poetry and finding my voice I let myself feel different emotions and question myself. I had explored my culture and faith. Some poetry evolved after a few pieces. But then I found a comfortable space in poetry and stayed there. I didn't push myself to look even deeper. I loved writing and sharing "hope in reality" through my poems. I still do and will keep doing so. Yet I didn't feel my poetry and myself grow. I started feeling stuck.
As you may have noticed that I didn't continue with the 12 poetry collaborations of dec. I couldn't find enough people that wanted to participate. Next, last month was my 9th blog anniversary. But that's not what I'm here to talk about.
My lifelong poetry affirmation is "my writing gives me clarity" but last year I had a specific poetry affirmation of "I will confidently take baby steps to share my vulnerability."
I had confessed that I was scared to share vulnerable pieces and scared of my emotions to write. When I first started writing poetry and finding my voice I let myself feel different emotions and question myself. I had explored my culture and faith. Some poetry evolved after a few pieces. But then I found a comfortable space in poetry and stayed there. I didn't push myself to look even deeper. I loved writing and sharing "hope in reality" through my poems. I still do and will keep doing so. Yet I didn't feel my poetry and myself grow. I started feeling stuck.
Ever since I put it out in the universe that I needed to be vulnerable I've seen myself write a bit darker. I let myself feel the emotions and question myself through the poetry. I wrote about death and anxiety. The sharing part is what I am still working on. You may subtly see hints of the darker pieces.
It's hard to be vulnerable online. I'm taking my own advice. Maybe share a line or stanza of the poem instead of the whole piece. Then once you see the positive response you may be more comfortable to share the whole poem. I'm excited and nervous to share the parts of myself I haven't before. My next poetry affirmation for this year is "I will confidently challenge my poetry."
I hope that you see that when you put what you want out into the universe it will come true. Pick a poetry affirmation and repeat it to yourself. You will see yourself working on it and it will come true.
Stay inspired (and encourage others),
Fida
Song of the day: Beating Me Up by Rachel Platten.
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