We know fasting long hours is hard. We know fasting in the heat is hard. Have you ever thought of fasting with a disability?
God says those with long term illnesses don't have to fast. Yet I want to try and push myself. I want the experience and good deeds.
We are a little over being halfway done with Ramadan and here's my reflection:
Some days I can fast all day without getting hungry and some days I'm starving or aching in the last few hours. It depends on how much I drink and what I eat in the morning before I fast. I drink two large bottles of water. I have soup and dinner rolls, without those I'm hungry.
Even on those starving hours I push myself saying I have only this much time left or that I need to finish my to do list or I should try napping and helping my mom. Other times I do break my fast or don't fast one day (or more).
There is also the extra prayers. I try to stand throughout most or all of it and sometimes I succeed and sometimes I don't. I just end up sitting. Yet these extra prayers are not mandatory. If I'm nor feeling well I pray less or not at all.
With these long hours I have a very bad sleep schedule. Yet I'm blessed to see my friends everyday (and not have to worry about school when this is over).